Today wasn’t a great day for me.
I woke up late after too little sleep. Someone I love doesn’t seem to want to talk to me, which put me in a down mood. I couldn’t get focused to do any writing, so I answered emails, read stuff online, took a nap.
I did a workout, but couldn’t finish it because my wrist hurt. I rode my bike to the grocery store on a warm summer evening, which was nice. I cooked a healthy dinner for myself. Had some wine.
It wasn’t a great day, and my mood descended…
Some days, you don’t have anything. Some days, you don’t knock it out of the park.
On a day like this, I sat still. It was all I could do.
I looked inward and faced the hurt.
I stayed with it, just giving it my attention.
I noticed the story I was telling myself, that was causing the pain. It wasn’t a good story. The more I got stuck telling myself this story, the more I was stuck in the pain.
So I turned to the present moment and allowed myself to feel the pain, instead of running from it, pushing it away, or trying to do something to end it.
It wasn’t so bad. And it didn’t stay around much longer, now that I allowed myself to sit with the hurt.
In the middle of all of this seeming solidness, there’s nothing. Just a fluid present moment.
After turning and facing my feelings, staying with them, and seeing the nothingness in the middle of it all … everything was OK. Not brilliant, but not so bad.
Some days, you have nothing, but that’s OK.
Contributed: Leo Babauta, Zen Habits